it's a feeling

to think of this..i just realised that..

i never celebrated any special event with the person i love..i never had a chance to have it also..

it's ok..im used with it already..the feeling of loneliness. i feel like it turn into a part of my life already. 

maybe time hasn't come yet. it's ok..i told myself that. 

i should never believe any guy in this world. i wouldn't turn into lesbian. 

i'm tired already. i loved with all my heart. and at the end. i still alone. i got nothing for doing so much. 

its twice already. but why i still choose to believe in you? me, myself also don't know about it. 

i don't trust people easily from now on. i hate it. people keep on betraying me. a friend did that too. this a reminder to every one : 

don't trust your friend easily. don't tell them everything. important keep in your heart. unimportant tell them. 

love never remain the same. but the wound that love caused remain the same forever. 

a guy heart can change by the next second and he might dump you in anytime. because of sick,tired,bored of everything. this is the truth of love. *its only my opinion* 

when a love start between you and him. 

when the moment it start. 

you must learn how to accept and let go when times come. 

if don't wish to get hurt by the person you loved the most. you must dump them before they dump you. so the person who get hurt is them. not yourself. 

*im sorry if you think im heartless* 

don't easily believe a promise from a guy. at the end. he still dumps you. and the feeling is very not nice. i had tried once. believe me :) 

this is kebebasan bersuara and part of it is from my exprience.